I am so excited for this new opportunity at JHU. I hope that it will lead to more teaching opportunities at JHU and I hope to expand my friendships. I want to have friends outside the family that I can exclude Mike from and who I can vent to. I want a life outside this family. I think my problem is that I am not involved outside the family. We will see where this leads, it just may be the opportunity I need to move on and find a different situation where I don't feel like shit everyday.