What would you do?

Would you confront your husband even though you went through his email?

What can it really do? It will anger both of us and then trust will be broken and so will us. What if you don't want to work on anything, you just want to move on.

My mind is in a daze and my heart is turmoil. Life isn't fair.

My heart

It may be broken right now. Atleast I have my Bella to smile at me and make me feel like the gorgeous most beautiful person in the world.

Where do we go from here?

You lied to me and I betrayed your trust by going through your email. There is no trust. How can this work? Can we fix us? Do you want to?

Why did have to happen to us?

Lies

Why would you lie to me unless there was a reason? You lied to be about your night in DC and you lied to me about going to Fredericksburg. I hate you for lying to me. You have broken my heart.

My Favorite Snow

My favorite snow was when we drove back to Frostburg together and we did not want to go back. It was already snowing. We took the longest way back we could including driving on route 40. Well along the way we found a hunting overlook and pulled over. I remember making out together and we opened the moon roof in the 4 runner. We just held hands kissed and watched the snow fall. Every time it snows it brings me back to this.

Excited

I am so excited for this new opportunity at JHU. I hope that it will lead to more teaching opportunities at JHU and I hope to expand my friendships. I want to have friends outside the family that I can exclude Mike from and who I can vent to. I want a life outside this family. I think my problem is that I am not involved outside the family. We will see where this leads, it just may be the opportunity I need to move on and find a different situation where I don't feel like shit everyday.

Wondering Minds

For example - Woke up in the middle of the night because Kayla had an accident. Began thinking that his phone is not dead but actually met up with Nealie in CA and they are doing it up. I doubt that's the case but I never had thoughts like this before.......